Friday, October 30, 2009
Yinny was Joshing around @ 6:16 AM
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Photographs are lovely things. They remind us of the good times, the happier and carefree days.
They can also bring a lot of pain.
I probably shouldn't have opened my family photograph folder. I was asking for it.
I bawled my eyes out.
I miss her.
I hate this feeling.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 7:12 PM
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Monday, October 26, 2009
Feels like just yesterday that we just met.
6 years on and one of us is getting married.
I wish her and her husband nothing but eternal bliss - I'm so happy that she found her 'The One' :)
My books finally arrived today:
I'm freaking compulsive. When I like a writer I usually finish their entire series. Chick lit is so brainless and addictive. I like.
FINALLY managed to buy my cupcakes from this new cupcake store in QV that I've been dying to try:
Blueberry Cream Cheese Cupcake
Bought 3 (Blueberry Cream Cheese, Green Tea Daisy & Berry Moon) but only managed to get a pic of one because the other 2 got a little squashed on the long journey home. They are so good. Check them out here:
http://www.thecupcakefamily.com.au/menu.html
Yinny was Joshing around @ 2:16 PM
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Monday, October 19, 2009
Dearest EE,
It's been 2 weeks since you left us and we're still feeling the after effects, like an earthquake that shook our world and left all of us lost and devastated. It sounds cheesy but it's true. There isn't a moment that passes where you don't cross my mind. I'm sure Ma's the same. When you left you took a huge piece of our hearts and we will never be the same again. We miss you so much.
It's your birthday next month and I don't know what to get you yet. I know I haven't been a very good niece because I've only sent flowers and cards every year. But I know material things don't matter to you, it's the thought that counts.
Sometimes thinking back, I'm still sore with God that we lost the fight. We tried so hard to keep you even though we saw you were in so much pain. I know that God has certain plans for all of us but I don't agree with how much pain and suffering He put you through these past 2 years. But that's God isn't it? We can never understand His work - all we can do is trust in Him.
Thank you for the last 6 weeks I had with you. Good or bad, these memories are those I will keep forever.
I hope you're having a blast in Heaven. I trust my God is taking care of you whilst you bask in His affection and look upon us every day. Zheng Xi is having exams soon, I will pray for him and Tian Ji every day and watch out for them always.
Until next time, we love and miss you very much.
Much love from your favourite niece,
Yins :)
Yinny was Joshing around @ 5:05 AM
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Friday, October 16, 2009
Holed up in my comfy room, listening to the raindrops outside and slurping hot Nissin cup noodles whilst watching Chinese serials.
Yummy.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 10:45 AM
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Thursday, October 15, 2009
I was feeling alone and down in the dumps today because of boredom (amongst other things) so I decided to go out (alone) and go to random places.
Believe me when I say I really love Singapore. Where else can you get a whole packet of mee hoon with a fried chicken wing and a sunny side up for SGD$2.80?? That's AUD$2.20 and in Melbourne that would buy you...erm...that would buy you practically nothing. Maybe a donut from Krispy Kreme. That wouldn't even buy you a cup of bubble tea - the price now has gone up to AUD$4 per cup whilst I'm still paying SGD$2 here.
So I went to Ion Orchard. It's so freaking convenient because once I get out of Orchard MRT, one side is Ion Orchard, which connects to Wheelock Place and the other side is Wisma Atria, which connects to Takashimaya. Everything is underground so I still feel like I'm in Melbourne with air-con all around me. Ahhhh this is the life.
Ion Orchard is a new mall that they built which is chocked full of every damned shop you can think of. I had a good time window shopping and then went into the Food Hall (which they named Food Opera I think) and was just hard-pressed to decide what I wanted to eat. This is very rare for me because usually in Melbourne I scan the whole city and don't have anywhere to eat because the food is just not nice. Over in Ion I had trouble deciding what to eat because there were so many things eg. chai tow kway, yong tau foo, ngoh hiang, fried prawn mee, laksa, chicken rice, fish head noodle soup, chendol, ice mango delight...AHHHHHHHHH why must I only have one stomach?!? In the end I decided to walk and eat my Old Chang Kee instead of sitting down for a meal. I just couldn't decide!! Speaking of Old Chang Kee, do you know that it delivers??? Even Sakae Sushi and Delifrance are into home delivery, not to mention almost every fast food outlet in Singapore!! Singapore is so small and convenient, that I don't know why anyone would need home delivery. I just have to walk out of my house and in 5 to 10 mins there's a Cold Storage, a whole row of restaurants, pubs, food courts and a wet market.
I walked into Kikki K (the very first Asian branch) and felt giddy with excitement. I know it's stupid because Kikki K is EVERYWHERE in Melbourne, I visit it frequently. For those of you who don't know, Kikki K is a Swedish stationery shop with stationery so beautiful you'd want to own the entire shop. The price is the only thing keeping me away. But OHHH I couldn't resist walking in and grabbing myself a cute monkey pen, an ice-cream magnetic bookmark (I think I have nearly the whole collection):
and a darling ice-cream pencil which is actually mechanical but it looks like an old fashioned pencil:
There was a new shop I'd never seen before called Callate La Boca, which is Spanish for 'Shut your mouth' I think. It had the CUTEST tshirts, tshirts with sunny side up eggs, Volkswagons, chicks, crazy eyes...I nearly bought a few then I glanced at the price of one (SGD$70) and nearly fainted. The shopgirl told me it was because the tshirts are made in Europe:
This is their Mascot with the crazy eyes
Cute chicken
Before I forget, I have to say that some Singaporeans take too much for granted. Whilst waiting for the train to come, I heard 2 girls complaining about how long the train was taking, when a train comes every 3.5 minutes. When it's peak period (morning), I think it comes every 2 mins. I mean, in Melbourne, I would be sooo freaking happy if the freaking train comes ON TIME every day. But noooo....normality is that it's either late or it's on strike, or it will never come because of some accident or fault with the line. Since coming back have I learnt to appreciate the joys of being at home (still hate the weather though).
Whilst on my way home, I remembered that my mom likes jellied tofu from a shop called Mr. Bean, so I went to get her some. Mr. Bean has outlets in almost every MRT station around Singapore, so it's wayyy convenient. This was the first time I've actually bought anything from there, and I thought their little Beanie mascot is soooo freaking cute. I had to go on their website and check out their merchandise because I nearly wanted to buy their straw dispenser:
I am just dying from cuteness.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 3:01 PM
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Thursday, October 08, 2009
Some of you who know me well enough know that my aunt had been struggling with colorectal cancer for just over 2 years to date. Just 3 days ago she lost the battle with cancer so aggressive that it rendered her unable to move and sometimes speak. My aunt passed away on 5 Oct 2009 in SGH at around 6.30pm, leaving her husband, 2 sons, my mom and a whole lot of other people heartbroken.
My aunt shared a room with me as early as I can remember. In those days I was a naughty kid, running around making everyone miserable. But she still loved me with all her heart like she loved everyone.
My aunt is truly a unique character. I say 'is' because she is still alive in my heart. She is one of the brightest intellectuals that I know and will ever know. She was always the first in class every year, she pursued her education until she received her professorship, she worked stubbornly hard, played hard and fought unrelentlessly for everything that she wanted.
She excels in everything that she does and her interests are so far and aplently that anyone would be amazed - She truly is a Jack of all Trades and a Master of all of them. She enjoyed nature, gardening, painting, cooking, writing, travelling, classical music etc. If you take a look at her portfolio, it spans the length of the Great Wall of China and the depths of the sea. She did so much good work and research in her 20+ years in Singapore that in the words of her ex-colleague, 'her death is a loss to Singapore'. On top of being a hard-worker and outstanding colleague, she was a loving mom, wife, daughter, sister, aunt and grandaunt. She never held grudges and her graciousness and ability to forgive and love even the worst of humanity is something that still amazes me.
We could tell from the number of people who came to her wake in the last 2 days that she has touched the lives of so many blessed enough to be able to cross paths with her - even the cleaning lady from her workplace contributed towards the pool of monetary offerings that was handed to us during her wake. Her son explained to me that his mother would always buy food and distribute it to her colleagues and workers so that everyone, no matter who they were, would receive a share - she forgot no one. That is my aunt - someone who always gives the best to others and keeps the crap for herself.
There is so much more that I can say about my aunt because her attributes are endless. All these are memories that I will keep - thinking back, there are so many things that I remember about her which make me smile. She fought this terrible disease so hard that I would never, ever wish this on anyone. The pain and suffering that someone so fiercely independent like her felt, ripped my heart into pieces but all I could do was watch and feel helpless from the outside.
In her last days I was privileged to be one of the few people around to care for her and thus I got to spend a lot of time with her. We shared laughter and tears and the love we have for each other is so powerful that I don't know if I can ever live knowing that I will never see her lovely smile nor hear her speak to me ever again. I miss everything about her and my pain is so raw that it numbs me sometimes.
I've learnt so much from her and will continue to preserve the legacy that she has left. I am devastated to say the least but also joyful that my aunt is now in God's arms and enjoying what she so rightly deserves - a life with no pain, no suffering, no worries and burdens but one with abundant joy and happiness.
My cousin found me a verse that is so apt in our situation:
'God saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be. So He put His arms around you and whispered "come to me." With tearful eyes we watched you and saw you pass away. Although we love you dearly, we could not make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hardworking hands at rest. God broke our hearts to prove to us, He only takes the best.'
Until we meet again, my dearest EE, you will be dearly loved and missed by all of us.
Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory, so clear
Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be?
That you are my
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are
Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my
Forever love
Watching me from up above
And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are
I know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are
~To Where You Are (Josh Groban)
Yinny was Joshing around @ 6:54 PM
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