Thursday, April 27, 2006
*thinks*
Been doing some thinking since I blogged the post about re-evaluation. I'm ok now. Life is always going to be like that. Ups and downs. Responsibilities. Disappointments. Achievements. It's all part and parcel of life and we have to take it as it comes. No use complaining or lamenting. Although it's also very easy to say and very hard to actually do it. But we can try. You never know until you try.
I know I may sound...mean when I say this. And I feel very guilty for it too. But I just wanted to get it off my chest. I feel sometimes that some of the people around me disappoint me. When I ask for a favor or ask them to do something, most of the times it doesn't get done until I give up and have to get it done myself. And it's disappointing because no matter what, I really try very hard to get things done for my friends when they ask me for help. And I can safely say 99% of the times I do get them done as quickly (unless my memory fails me) and well as possible. But people can't do the same for me, and I just feel sad sometimes that's all. Because I expect people to treat me the way I treat them, and sometimes it just doesn't happen. Maybe I expect too much. It just makes me feel that I'm not important. It's not just one time. It's been too many times. And I just can't understand why. Maybe it's really cuz I am not important.
I heard the disappointment in my mom's voice tonight when I told her I wasn't going back to Singapore and that the next time I will get to see her again will be in November. It hurt, but I really don't see the point in going back for just 3 weeks. Moreover, everyone is busy doing their own thing, they won't be able to spend much time with me.
You won't believe how worried I am about my exams this semester although I'm not showing it yet. Taking 4.5 law units together was a stupid thing to do. It kills whatever brains you may have left. I'll be lucky to make it through.
Anyways enough grovelling. Yuanny! Take care and enjoy your trip to the States! Juice, you take care and enjoy your trip to Hong Kong too!!! ARGH...both of you going Taiwan without MEEE!!! Remember me when you see 5566!!! *hugz* :)
Methinks it may be time to have a heartfelt talk with the girls soon. Prepare yourselves.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 12:05 AM
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Aquarius Woman - quite friggin true (Syl this is to us!!)
If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac, be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any man in her life, a very strong person indeed.
Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such person, so what? She thinks she can do anything that a man can do. She is a leader, a real confident type.
She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door for herself because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time. She is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think she is flirting with you. It is because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait around for you to be the one who asked.
She likes a cool guy who sometimes acts like he is ignoring her. She likes to guess her man's reaction and at the same time she likes to have many men wanting her. She is a daring type who does things differently from other people. She dares to fight for what she thinks belongs to her.
She even acts confidently when she feels lonely and alone. If she breaks up with someone, she won't show any emotion even if she is feeling pain and agony deep down inside. Not for long, she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has faith in love.
She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates a jealous guy. She loves FREEDOM so before and after marriage, her freedom has to be the same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow.
She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her win if it is not a big deal for you. She is a straightforward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell it to you straight to your face. Her love and relationships are always real, so if she says, "It's over" be prepared to leave, she is not testing you.
She is not a vulnerable type, so you do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you. Do not keep secrets from her, she hates it and it can really piss her off badly. When she is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that.
You will not get bored with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let her do all the talking. If you do, she will leave.
She has many type of jobs because she believes what a man can do, she can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job anytime just to come see you, but not for long because she will go back to work again. Be prepare to live with and love a "Working Woman".
If she is mad, find a shelter because the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not the revengeful type and will not think of "Pay Back" time. Most guys may think of her as "one of their GUY friends", but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice to her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is honest, truthful and will NEVER bore you. Understand that sometimes she will be over-confident and likes to have power or act bossy.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 1:33 AM
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Re-evaluation - I don't know what to think anymore
Been struggling with my essay for the past few days. Totally regret not doing it earlier. I was putting it off as usual – hey, procrastination is my middle name. Too bad “I-told-you- so” is also my first name. Now I totally am going to D-I-E. Only 6 more days to write at least 2000 more words. I can make it through the rain. Damnit.
I look back and still can’t understand how time can pass so quickly.
Blink. Week 4. Blink Week 7. Blink. Easter hols.Blink Week 8. Shite. Blink.Assignments due.Blink.Tests.Blink.Exams.Blink.HOLS AGAIN!!! Can’t wait.
Was doing some reflections the other day. I realize whenever I do reflections, I feel lost. I feel so lost sometimes I get terrified. I fear for everything. What am I going to do if I fail a unit? What am I going to do if I can’t get my honours? What am I going to do if I can’t go back to Singapore? What if I can’t find a job? If I get a job, how am I going to do that same job for the next 35 years (or so) of my life? What if I don’t know anything? How am I going to help people? What if and how. Shite. Then I start having a panic attack. *sigh* This is stressful. I can’t handle it.
Everyday I wake up and wish that my life was different. It’s not that I’m taking my current life for granted. It’s just that…I wish that I was someone else, doing something else for a change. It’s inexplicable.
Thank God my God is there for me. He will see me through no matter what.
~For the first time in a long time, she bowed her head to pray. She said, “I’m sorry for the way I’ve been living my life. I know I’ve got to change. So from now on tonight…Jesus, take the wheel. Take it from my hands. Cuz I can’t do this on my own. I’m letting go. So give me one more chance. Save me from this road I’m on. Jesus, take the wheel."
~Jesus take the wheel (Carrie Underwood)
Yinny was Joshing around @ 12:52 AM
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Monday, April 24, 2006
Scary sheeeett...
Amy and I just spent 1 minute screaming at each other. It's just so major creepy how some things turn out to be coincidences...Or are they? I spend so much time with my hostelmates (not that that's a bad thing) that we have grown to become so alike in some ways. Heck, we act alike, think alike and say the same things frequently. We spend so much of our free time together, people would think we had no other friends. I wonder if we'll become telepathic one day. Anyways, as I was saying, the reason Amy and I were screaming at each other was because we...
1. Both were awake at this unEARTHly hour
2. I was thinking of blogging when she just blogged 15 minutes before
3. I read her blog 15 minutes after she posted her latest post up and rushed down to her room immediately, wanting to know what she was doing awake when she had class 5 hours later
4. Upon knocking on her door, I heard the familiar sound of my blog music
5. On entering, I realised that she was reading my blog at the same time I read hers
That is majorly freaky. When I told her about it, she couldn't stop grabbing her hair, screaming, "Oh my GAWD!!!" (oOps, sorry Bernice).
Yep, that was what the commotion and excitement was about.
On the other hand, because of all this excitement, I cannot remember what it was that I wanted to blog about in the first place. Bah.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 1:22 AM
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Friday, April 21, 2006
fun Fun FUN
It's been a great week so far. We were out all day. Sang karaoke for 3.5 hours. Got to sing my fave songs and laugh at Amy do her canto pop and Michy do her oldies. I admire people who can sing well. It's so bloody hard to sing without the backup!!! Awhile ago I was saying that the lead singer of Hoobastank really stank cuz he couldn't sing "The reason" live without going off key. I AM SO DARN SORRY FOR SAYING THAT. We attempted "The reason" and it's really damn hard to sing live. You go off tune too easily. Sorry dude. I just wish that the English MV's would be the real MV's and not some stupid woman strutting around on tv or some scenery!!! Imagine singing Chingy's "Right Thurrrr" to scenery!!!
Why does pleasure always come before pain? We are so dead. Wasted the whole hols. Assignments are due in soon before tests before exams. ARGH!!! WHAT TO DO?!?! WHAT TO DO!??!?!
Yinny was Joshing around @ 10:42 PM
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Exhausted
I've slept for 2 hrs since Monday. Woke up at 3:30pm on Monday and stayed up all day till 8am this morning. Fell asleep for 2 hrs then had to wake up to go out. Can you believe I was up all night arranging my music?! What a freaking waste of time. But once I start I can't stop. And I didn't expect it to take all night. I am COMPLETELY wasted.
The hols has been up to a good start so far. Today we went to watch "Ice Age 2". It was pretty hilarious. The story plot was not fantastic but the characters were funny. Some parts were even pretty lame but on the whole it was MUCH better than the 2 crappy movies we watched on Sunday. The only thing that annoyed me immensely was...WHEN IS THAT DUMB FELLA EVER GOING TO GET THAT DAMNED ACORN???
Had lunch then we came back for like 10 minutes before we went out again. Amy had to drive to the city to return her library books so we decided to take a ride. I received my BA Arts cert today! Weirdly enough, I have absolutely NO feelings whatsoever about it. Maybe when I receive my 2nd one then I'll have a shout about it. Decided to go shopping in the city since we were already there. Went to the Nike factory outlet but there wasn't anything interesting at the mo so I just got my brother 2 t-shirts. Then went to have dinner at Lygon street and chocolates again at Koko Black. I SWEAR I am not going back to Koko Black in a LONG time. I am ABSOLUTELY sick of it.
Came back happy and tired but still had to study. Pooey. Nothing's going into my brain now. Need.To.Sleep. Tomorrow going to the city again to shop. My dad's gonna seriously kick my arse.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 12:22 AM
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Monday, April 17, 2006
Ugh
ugh I have a headache. Went for a last min midnite movie marathon with the girls. Watched "8 below", "Scary movie 4" and "The shaggy dog" from 12am to 5:30am for a cheap price of arnd $6 each. It was damn stupid. I hate "Scary movie 4". That was so dumb and lame. But we HAD to watch it cuz you can't choose the movies in the marathon. It comes as a trio. UGH. Damn idiotic. And "Shaggy Dog" was freaking boring. "8 below" was good. It was touching. Paul Walker is hot and the doggies were DAMN CUTE LAH!!! I miss HASH!!! They were really damn smart.
I'm now waiting for "Ice Age 2" to come take me out of my bad movie experience.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 2:02 PM
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
Easter sunday
It was a good day today. Or should I say it's been a good day so far.
Morning: Went to Shine (this fancy cafe) to have breakky. Scrumptious. Took a grand total of 2 hours to finish because we were waiting for the live jazz band so we ate painfully slowly. Reminds me of Peg *lolz*. Finished with fondue that was slightly disappointing and overpriced. Overall not a bad experience. Played air hockey, daytona and DDR in the arcade. FUNFUNFUN!!!
Afternoon: Went to get food for steamboat dinner tonight!
Evening: Now doing household chores and later going to prepare for steamboat. Looking forward to a Looooonnnnnggggg chat with the girls laterz over dinner.
Last week we went to watch "She's the man" by Amanda Bines. It was pretty funny. The guys were pretty hot. Gonna watch "8 below", "Ice age 2" and "Take the lead" soon. NO $$$ liaoz!!!
Just did my laundry. Horrified to realise I washed my ipod earphones in the washing machine. It's still working although it's still not very clean *lolz*. I'm scared to use it. :S
We should live like that everyday. Carefree and without worries. Life is short. Laugh at everything. :)
Yinny was Joshing around @ 3:23 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
Madness
Shops are only going to be closed tomorrow for Easter Sunday and everyone is so desperate to go out that they go out today?!
It was MAYHEM in Chadstone. People everywhere. Was so crowded (of course still not as bad as back home in IKEA most of the time). Wasn't a very pleasant shopping experience.
Of course we didn't go there to shop. We went there to look for a disposable bbq pit in the hopes of having a bbq tomorrow night. But nope. Forgot that this is not Singapore. We couldn't find one. So no bbq. Booo...
Thinking back, nothing much went right today. I woke up this morning late in a dreamy state. Worst thing was I could remember having a shower, but couldn't remember if I had washed my hair. Well, I don't think I did. Because after I blew dry it, it was super flat and oily looking. I wanted to go back and wash it again but it was too late and we had to catch the bus. I wore the wrong jacket because I thought it was going to be cold but ended up being sunny instead so it was hot, yet too cold if I didn't wear any jacket. To top it off, you just feel so bloody uncomfortable when your period is here. And heavy.
It took forever to get to Chadstone because of a traffic jam. Then we got up to give our seats to 2 old women and ended up standing the rest of the way there. When we got there, it was crowded. Had an unsatisfying lunch and went and walked around. Couldn't find the pit. Great. So walked around somemore. Michy and Syl bought me an Easter rabbit (I named it Floppity). We queued up at the famous Koko Black (chocolate cafe) and managed to get a seat. After that we missed our bus by 5 seconds. In the end? Home and snug in my warm room with cute bunny and chocolate in my tummy.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 6:00 PM
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*yawn*
It's 2:45am and I'm still here listening to my lecture online. It's so torturous my ears are bleeding. I go in to listen to the lecture by that wheezy old geezer and can hardly hear anything he says because every breath of his sounds like he's gonna get an asmatic attack anytime. I listen to it online and adjust the volume to the max and can just manage to make out what he is saying. It's a bloody waste of my time because he just reads from the damn textbook when I can do that myself.
I'm freaking tired. Just spent a whole day trying to do my very tedious assignment. It's finally almost finished. I would have finished it but I have to wait and discuss something with a friend. I can't believe she asked me to not only edit her assignment, but also asked me to do it asap so that she could compare hers with mine and see what she had left out so she could add it in. What do you say to people like that???
Lucky we're going to Chaddy tomorrow. I need a break. How come I'm trying so hard this semseter but nothing is going into my brain? All those hours reading seem useless and wasted when I look at the questions and have no idea how to answer them. By now I should have already grasped the basic concepts. Damn it. Bloody memory sucks.
On a lighter note, it's Easter! And Easter hols! Happy Easter everybody!!! I got chocolate yesterday from Syl. Michy who was cheapo decided to give me choc that she got free from the library. And I got a major cute knitted chick with a beanie and a choc egg from Amy. Whee! :) How did rabbits and chicks and eggs get associated with Easter??? How did Santa get associated with Christmas??? At least our Chinese festivals (like mooncake festival & Dragon boat festival) make sense. Oh wellz. Take care everybody!! Happy hols to the aussies and good luck for exams for the singaporeans!!!
Yinny was Joshing around @ 12:41 AM
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
A new beginning
Decided to get a new blog because I need a fresh start. I need to move on. Someone once said that to be able to forget and forgive, you have to let go of any hope that the past may have been better. Let it go.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 3:21 PM
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