thinks
*thinks*Been doing some thinking since I blogged the post about re-evaluation. I'm ok now. Life is always going to be like that. Ups and downs. Responsibilities. Disappointments. Achievements. It's all part and parcel of life and we have to take it as it comes. No use complaining or lamenting. Although it's also very easy to say and very hard to actually do it. But we can try. You never know until you try.I know I may sound...mean when I say this. And I feel very guilty for it too. But I just wanted to get it off my chest. I feel sometimes that some of the people around me disappoint me. When I ask for a favor or ask them to do something, most of the times it doesn't get done until I give up and have to get it done myself. And it's disappointing because no matter what, I really try very hard to get things done for my friends when they ask me for help. And I can safely say 99% of the times I do get them done as quickly (unless my memory fails me) and well as possible. But people can't do the same for me, and I just feel sad sometimes that's all. Because I expect people to treat me the way I treat them, and sometimes it just doesn't happen. Maybe I expect too much. It just makes me feel that I'm not important. It's not just one time. It's been too many times. And I just can't understand why. Maybe it's really cuz I am not important. I heard the disappointment in my mom's voice tonight when I told her I wasn't going back to Singapore and that the next time I will get to see her again will be in November. It hurt, but I really don't see the point in going back for just 3 weeks. Moreover, everyone is busy doing their own thing, they won't be able to spend much time with me. You won't believe how worried I am about my exams this semester although I'm not showing it yet. Taking 4.5 law units together was a stupid thing to do. It kills whatever brains you may have left. I'll be lucky to make it through.Anyways enough grovelling. Yuanny! Take care and enjoy your trip to the States! Juice, you take care and enjoy your trip to Hong Kong too!!! ARGH...both of you going Taiwan without MEEE!!! Remember me when you see 5566!!! *hugz* :)Methinks it may be time to have a heartfelt talk with the girls soon. Prepare yourselves.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 12:05 AM
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