rage is a deadly sin
I woke up this morning a very angry person. (maybe that's cuz sleep-deprived people are more prone to rage). I wasn't only angry at myself.I felt deep feelings of resentment & hatred that I had built up over many years just flood back all at one time and hit me in the face.And then it was like a tug of war in my brain between my good conscience (yes, I do have one, believe it or not) and my bad conscience. I ended up with a splitting headache.Why do I always get caught up in a tangle when emotions and relationships are concerned?I always get stuck - I can't take a step back yet I can't progress. That's the worst place to be. Neither here nor there. Not in heaven yet not in hell. That's where I am.I don't even know what I should do next.I can't even ask someone for advice because no one will be impartial enough to give it to me.Feel like breaking down but I can't cuz for so many reasons, I just can't.
Times like that when I turn to God.Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant starI wish upon tonight to see you smileIf only for awhile to know you’re thereA breath away’s not far to where you are
I know you’re thereA breath away’s not far to where you are ~Josh Groban
Yinny was Joshing around @ 9:37 AM
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