Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Blow hot blow cold
Ok...that's a direct translation from the chinese saying "hu leng hu re". I hate it when people hu leng hu re on me. It makes me freaking annoyed. And this year as far as I can remember, 2 people have done it to me already. And it bugs the heck out of me. It's a freaking idiotic part of their personalities that they have to rectify. Just as you think that you are getting friendly, they shut you off and you're like, "what the hell???" Then the next day they repeat the cycle again. Guess I will just have to ignore them totally from now on. Idiots.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 11:54 PM
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Confessions of an eternal teenager
I want to say something but I don’t know what. I realise that I’m constantly feeling this way recently. I get random thoughts at random times and they get all jumbled up cuz they just run through my mind with the speed of lightning. Every thought is vastly different to the next. I feel confused. Here are a few that went through my mind just as I was typing those few sentences:
Exams are coming up and I feel extremely stressed out for various reasons. I can’t remember if I’ve felt THIS stressed out before because I feel like I’m on the verge of a breakdown at the moment. I feel like just walking away and saying, “screw this” and copp out on my papers and re-sit them next semester. That’s how unsure I am about the exams now. I'm dying silently. I wish whoever invented bloody exams would rot in their graves. Pooey.
I’ve realised that I have this perverted need to constantly perve on guys. You know, not in the REALLY perverted sort of way like having sex or what, but I like the feeling when I see a guy I like. It’s like an adrenaline rush. When I like someone, I want to be in their presence 24/7. It’s like a drug/addiction. When I don’t see them, I start to crave for the next time you see them again. It’s pathetic I know, but I can’t help it!! And then it becomes a game. Even if I don’t like really the person, I make myself believe that I do to fulfil my perverted needs. So for example, if I hate going to a lecture, I pick the hottest guy there to scam on every time I go to that lecture. It actually motivates me. Well, whatever rocks my socks right? I still hate guys though. How ironic.
I’ve also realised that you think that the people who have known you for ages and are close to you can understand you. And they don’t. It’s like no one agrees with my point of view anymore. No one understands what I am thinking and saying. It’s f****** annoying. To make matters worse, they judge you and try and impose their views on you or pretend to understand you. WTF???
To top it all off, I annoy myself sometimes. I have this idiotic habit of looking at people/things and most of the time and picking out their flaws instead of their positives. I see a glass which is half empty (actually when I was first asked that question I said it was half full but it looks like it may not be the case anymore). I don’t know how I cultivated that awful characteristic. It may be from my parents. I remember when I was growing up, they didn't have anything good to say about me. I could get 97% for an exam and they'd go, "What? How come you didn't score full marks??" Geeze. I can’t help it! So if someone says, "Wow! So-and-so is really good looking", I'd say, "Yea, but he's damn dumb". I am so mean it scares me sometimes.
Moreover, I feel uncomfortable when people praise me!!! REALLY!!! And I realised that it is SUPER hard for me to compliment others as well (so when I do, I REALLY mean it)!!! Because when I was growing up, I hardly received compliments, so I'm just not used to it. It's just major weird. I should see a psychologist. I must have been a deprived, abused kid. Poor me.
Before I forget, I want to thank the gals for the amazing time we had on the 27th May 2006. We…
1. Played badminton in the morning
2. Yum cha-ed in the afternoon
3. Watched “Take the lead” – was really good
4. Sang our hearts out at karaoke
5. Came home and played Monopoly, cards (every game we could think of) whilst consuming alcohol as a punishment (Indian poker is SOOO fun)
6. Played the most fun “Truth or dare” I’ve ever had whilst intoxicated – With ME answering MAJOR intrusive & embarrassing questions
7. All slept in my room on the friggin hard floor. I had to move up to my bed because I couldn’t take it – I can’t believe Amy & Syl enjoyed it
8. Slept in till mid-afternoon the next day before sluggishly starting revision for exams
I was hoping for a pour-your-hearts-out extremely long girly chat but in the end some people got intoxicated and weren’t thinking straight anymore and fell asleep. What to do. So I pour my heart out on this blog loh.
Disclaimer: BTW, this information is strictly confidential to readers of my blog only. Also, thou shalt not judge me after reading this post. Everybody is different. R.E.S.P.E.C.T.
~Bloody tired @ 4:10 a.m.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 1:56 AM
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Sunday, May 28, 2006
rewind
can we go back to yesterday pls?
Yinny was Joshing around @ 1:05 PM
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Friday, May 26, 2006
Anticipation
I just hate it when you’re looking forward to something and it takes so long for time to pass and then when it’s over you’re like, “Crap, let’s do it again” cuz it seemed like time passed too fast then. I’m looking forward to a whole day out with the girlies tomorrow. It’s a full schedule. We’re playing baddy in the morning, going for yum cha for lunch, watching a movie after that, karaoke-ing for 4 hrs then lastly dinner! If we’re not too tired we can come back and play Indian poker with the last of Syl’s alcohol *lol*. Can’t wait!!! This is the last day we get to have fun together before 1. exams come and 2. Michy goes home for good.
Speaking of exams, I’ve just started revision. It feels like all new material to me even though I’ve already read it. My brain is rusty already. In a way I’m glad that I have about a week in-between each of my exams so that I have enough time to prepare. And I don’t have uni next week! Whee!! (people are gonna start bashing me soon)
All the best of luck to those having exams soon!!!
Yinny was Joshing around @ 10:16 PM
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
bye
I knew that hearing my mom's voice at this time of the night was not going to be a good thing. Especially not when I just spoke to her yesterday. Especially when her voice sounded sleepy, like she just woke up. In fact, she had been crying.
My uncle (my mom's brother) just passed away at the age of nearly 70 I think. His heart just stopped. He was hospitalized for a week (in KL) but his sons didn't think it was serious enough to tell the other family members about it. They were supposed to visit my home in May but as usual, because my mom and aunt were too busy to accomodate them, they pushed it to December. Incidentally he was my favourite uncle. We didn't get to see him one last time before he left. The last time I saw him was last year in December.
We should have seen it coming though. He smoked and drank his whole life. He contracted TB and all sorts of illnesses prior to his death. Just when we thought he was on the road to recovery, he left us.
He left his wife, 4 sons (who are all married and have their own families) and 5 grandchildren behind.
bye "gee gu" (hokkien for 2nd uncle). I will never forget how you used to stand up for me when my mom scolded me. I will never forget how you would ride your bicycle out to the roadside stalls just to buy me breakfast. I remember laughing at you when you tried to speak broken English to me, thinking that I couldn't understand hokkien. I will miss your chitter-chattering in hokkien, with me straining to understand every word. bye, I will miss you.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 7:35 PM
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Spreading the love
I'm sure everyone has felt unloved a one period of time or another. It's so good to know that even if the whole world has foresaken you, God will still love you. Got this song on recommendation from Juice. The singer has a very pretty voice. The lyrics are sad but true. You can download it from: http://www.grassrootsmusic.com/artist/hellerjj/hellerjj3?DCMP=BAC-AD&ATT=jjheller (right click "(Full Mp3)"and click save target as)
Love you (by JJ Heller)
he cries in the corner where nobody sees,
he's the kid with a story no one will believe.
he prays every night,
"dear God, won't you please send someone here who will love me
-who will love me for me
not for what i have done or what i will become.
who will love me for me,
cause nobody has shown me what love,
what love really means."
her office is shrinking a little each day,
she's the woman whose husband has ran away,
she'll go to the gym after working today,
maybe if she was thinner then he would have stayed.
and she says,"who will love me for me?
not for what i have done or what i will become,
who will love me for me?
cause nobody has shown me what love,
what love really means."
he's waiting to die as he sits all alone,
he's a man in a cell who regrets what he has done,
he utters a cry from the depths of his soul,"oh Lord, forgive me. i want to go home"
then he heard a voice,
somewhere deep inside,
and it said,"I know you've murdered, and I know you've lied,
I have watched you suffer all of your life.
and now that you'll listen, I will tell you that I,
I will love you for you,
not for what you have done or what you will become.
I will love you for you,
I will give you the Love,
the Love that you never knew.
I will love you for you,
not for what you have done or what you will become.
I will love you for you,
I will give you the Love,
the Love that you never knew."
Yinny was Joshing around @ 6:02 PM
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Addicted (Kelly Clarkson)
It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways If I don't give you up now
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this [2x]
Yinny was Joshing around @ 5:28 PM
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Monday, May 22, 2006
meditating on God's word
Everytime I'm feeling lost or faced with a problem I'd turn to the bible for help. Today is no different. God works in mysterious ways. I said a prayer first, then opened it and came across this verse:
PSALM 141
An Earnest Appeal for Guidance and Deliverance
A Pslam of David.
Hear my prayer, O Lord,
Give ear to my supplications!
In Your faithfulness answer me,
And in Your righteousness.
Do not enter into judgment with Your servant.
For in Your sight no one living is righteous.
For the enemy has persecuted my soul;
He has crushed my life to the ground;
He has made me dwell in darkness,
Like those who have long been dead.
Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me;
My heart within me is distressed.
I remember the days of old;
I mediate on all Your works;
I muse on the work of Your hands.
I spread out my hands to You;
My soul longs for You like a thirsty land.
Answer me speedily, O Lord;
My spirit fails!
Do not hide your Face from me,
Lest I be like those who go down
into the pit;
Cause me to hear Your
lovingkindness in the morning,
For in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in
which I should walk,
For I lift up my soul to You,
Deliver me, O Lord, from my
enemies;
In You I take shelter.
Teach me to do Your will,
For You are my God;
Your Spirit is good.
Lead me in the land of uprightness.
Revive me, O Lord, for Your
name's sake!
For Your righteousness' sake
bring my soul out of trouble.
In Your mercy cut off my
enemies,
And destroy all those who afflict
my soul;
For I am Your servant.
Perfect. Just what I was looking for.
*Btw, MATTHEW 5 - 7 is super interesting.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 2:20 PM
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Friday, May 19, 2006
By the way, a friend of mine (Chairman of the Singapore club here in Monash) has a blog with her friends at http://makanmakanmelbourne.blogspot.com/. Check it out when you are free for fun. It has reviews of all the places in Melbourne that they have eaten at. Cheers.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 6:50 PM
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I wonder what God is trying to tell you when you see the same person 9 times a week (not that I'm counting *lol*) and that he's taking the same 3 out of 4 units as you are and is coincidentally in the same lectures as you for 2 of the units. And coincidentally when you have a combined lecture today, you see him again. The best part is, you don't even know each other. But after 11 weeks you start giving each other funny looks that read, "are you stalking me??". Pure coincidence or fate? (I'll go with coincidence at the moment since he's too cute) And why a honky of all people???
Yinny was Joshing around @ 2:45 PM
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Thursday, May 18, 2006
please go away
Go away because I don't want to talk to you on msn anymore.
Go away because I don't want to talk to you on msn anymore.
I've been trying to avoid you for so long. But you always initiate the conversation anyway. And I feel guilty for not answering. Because deep down I want to talk to you too.
But you are so smart you make me feel stupid.
Because everytime I talk to you I don't know what to say. And I hold back. In case you think I'm dumb. In case you find me boring.
Because I think the world of you. And you make me feel so inadequate.
Please go away. Because everytime you talk, you pepper your sentences with her name.
I don't want to hear it anymore.
I don't want to hear it.
Please don't make me hear it.
Just go away.
But you are so smart you make me feel stupid.
Because everytime I talk to you I don't know what to say. And I hold back. In case you think I'm dumb. In case you find me boring.
Because I think the world of you. And you make me feel so inadequate.
Please go away. Because everytime you talk, you pepper your sentences with her name.
I don't want to hear it anymore.
I don't want to hear it.
Please don't make me hear it.
Just go away.
I'm Miss Independent. I'm Miss self-sufficient. So why the hell does it feel so crummy.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 10:00 PM
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
head spinning
*ugh* I feel as if I'm floating. And no...don't think it's the alcohol I had just now, since I only had a few sips of lolly water. Weird. *hic* lol...Beer tastes like shit. Not that I've tasted shit before. But seriously. I can't drink alcohol when it's not fruity and sweet. Just tastes so bad. Pooey.
Went to the city yesterday and met up with Serene. Went on her show for half an hour just to see how she did all her DJ-ing stuff. So cool. But damn tough to be a DJ. Have to do all the controlling and stuff. Quite confusing. :S
I have exams to prepare for. Crap. So much work to do that it's not even funny anymore. *curses* Stress calls for retail therapy. But the result of retail therapy is stress. So what use is therapy. Freaking vicious cycles. I hate you. *curses again*
Yinny was Joshing around @ 11:42 PM
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
BGR
I spoke to a friend recently who told me she had recently broken up with her boyfriend. She did the breaking-up, not him. And she was clearly upset about it but adamant that she had made the right decision. Turning to me for confirmation that she did make the right choice was of course also the correct decision since I’ve been in her situation. I couldn’t provide her with an answer though. How can you tell whether decisions involving life are right or not? To me there isn’t a right or wrong answer. It’s just…well…what’s best I guess. There’s always a mental list of pros and cons that you have to go through before making your decision. Then you just see which side the see-saw tips and go with that. It’s most practical. That’s what I did before I decided to come over to Australia. That’s what I do with most situations when I find myself in a dilemma.
It opened up a whole can of worms for me when she spoke about her problems and asked me what I did and how I felt about my situation at the time. I simply told her that I thought that that was the best for the both of us at that time. I mean, thinking back, what the hell was I thinking? Getting attached when I was so young and to someone to who I’d only known for 3 months? If I had to do it all over again I probably would have waited until I was at least 19 because now I see it in a different light. It’s not that I regret having the relationship, it was that I regret having it with the wrong person at the wrong time. I guess that doesn’t make sense to you but it does to me. If I had waited a bit longer I would have seen that he wasn’t the guy that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and I wasn’t ready for a relationship. We wanted different things. I was looking for a fling and he was looking for a long-term. And everyone knows how much I hate commitment *so why oh why did I enter into a relationship*. On the other hand, at that point of time when you’re being put in a spot when you feel like you have to give an answer immediately, that doesn’t really go through your mind. Especially not when you’re 17.
So…I mean everyone has their reasons for doing what they do. And to let go of a serious relationship is not easy. As long as you believe that it’s for the best then don’t let anything hold you back. There are going to be people who are hurt in the process but it’s inevitable. It’s either you or them. And better them than you I reckon *sniggers*. Oh…I’m so mean. But it’s life. You don’t mean to do it but you have to for the common good.
I realized that all my good friends are single (besides Xiao Zhi and Rara who have cute bfs). *looks suspiciously at them* They are all great people though, beautiful women inside and out and I think they have nothing to worry about. Not that they are worried, of course. After you reach a certain age you realize that boys (they never become men, not even after army) are nothing but toys *lol*.
She asked me how I bounced back from it so quickly. I honestly have no clue. Absolutely no feelings about it. Move on. Once you get stuck, you’ll be left behind. BGR is something that I take loosely. Well at least at the moment. I treasure family and friends much more and if I lose them or have any problems with them, then I’ll be truly upset. The day I change my mind is the day I find THE ONE. THE REAL ONE.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 2:05 PM
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
Happy mothers' day!!!
Don't we all just love our moms? For all they've done for us. For them just being them. For their unconditional love? Well, it's mothers' day for me everyday cuz I don't get to spend much time with my workaholic mom since I'm overseas and since she's a, well, workaholic. Anyways, happy mothers' day to all moms!! Moms rock!!
Yinny was Joshing around @ 2:19 PM
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
It's times like these when I miss my siblings. I'm actually watching the FA cup match (Liverpool vs Westham) by myself. Which is strange. Because I usually watch soccer matches with my brother in the middle of the night at like 2am. Sometimes if my sister can't sleep she'll trot down and join us in her pyjamas. Sometimes when my father can't sleep he'll join us and yell some things from the sofa. Usually when it's just me and my bro up late at night, I'll fix cup noodles (he loves that) for us during half-time and we'll have a discussion on the first half of the match or flip through late night crappy tv and talk nonsense. He's probably the only one who can put up with my swearing at the tv and yelling "referee kaiyu"!! since he does it too.
Tonight I was swearing at the tv by myself and making general comments to myself and cheering by myself (Now I know how it feels like to be mad. Or Amy. *sniggers*) (Liverpool won!! Woohooo!!). It feels weird. I miss my siblings.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 11:33 PM
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Alcohol - not my favourite drink
Got an urgent call from Amy yesterday in search of entertainment, so we dropped everything and left immediately for Chadstone. We walked around and had lunch but felt unsatisfied so we abandoned Chaddy to go karaokeing instead. The room was HUGE and it was only $15 to sing for 4 hours and included 1 meal and 1 drink. What was supposed to be a fun time for all of us turned out to be fun for only me instead (I think). So sorry about that. Whilst I sang my lungs out to Cyndi Wang’s “Dadada”, the rest were mocking my song by getting it down and dancing to it with Macarena-like moves like Samsoon in that Korean drama. I felt so embarrassed. Lucky no one walked past the room at that point. I’d hate to see their reaction. I think it’s tough to sing when all 4 of us have different tastes in music. I’m all for my Taiwanese songs, Syl for her black music *lol*, Michy for her old English songs and Amy for her Canto pop cannot stop *lol*. So in the end I was the one singing most of the songs because I simply ignored the rest HURHUR.
Had lunch at Shine, this nice cafe at Glen, which ended up with Michy treating (thanks!). So I treated her back to some entertainment at the arcade and then walked around Glen. By the time we were supposed to do groceries, I had a attack of the period cramps and it was so bad I couldn't walk. Thank God Michy bought me Panadol "RAPID" (it's in inverted commas because it took an hour to finally work) and I was fine again and we managed to stumble home.
Why does it always turn out the same way after we've had a few drinks? Amy decided to come home later and announce that she felt like having alcohol and we promptly raced down to the nearby bottleshop for some. After much persuasion and "fei wah" (which is "fei hua". which is nonsense talk) from the hilarious shop assistant, tonight we tried "Pink", a nice light pink champagne which was nothing more than nice to look at. It came in an attractive bottle but the contents were nasty. It tasted like, well, bubbly. I don't like that. It's not sweet. It's not fruity. It just tastes bitter-sour and alcoholic. Yucks. Despite that, I managed to gulp a glass down, leaving the rest of the bottle for Michelle and Amy to finish whilst I proceeded to my Vodka lime cruiser which tasted a tad too sweet but MUCH better. Amy had a beer and Michelle had a midori cruiser to finish but after the bubbly they were too stoned to drink anymore. So the drinks are currently in my fridge. Any takers?
After Michelle has had a few drinks, she starts to get loud. And uninhibited. And starts saying weird things. :S Not too good. Lucky Amy was fine. She even started a game of Monopoly which ended with yours truly winning (for the first time) and 2 not-too-happy-about-losing people in da house. Then it was 3am and time for bed and Amy hadn't even bathed yet. *Poohpooh*.
As usual, I'm still up watching late night tv but all channels will soon be showing advertistments on knives and face wash so I better turn in too. It was fun. Lucky tomorrow is Saturday. Crap. Haven't got any work done yet. Week 11 soon. *tears hair out*
Goodnight everyone. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ......
Yinny was Joshing around @ 1:22 AM
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Friday, May 12, 2006
When you feel the dream is over
Feel the world is on your shoulders
And you lost the strength to carry on
Even though the walls may crumble
And you find you always stumble through
Remember never to surrender to the dark
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that’s not the way
The story has to end
And if you need to find a way back
Feel you’re on the wrong track
Give it time, you’ll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You’ll be stronger with each tear that you cry
Then you’ll learn to fly
In your head, so many questions
The truth is your possession
The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)
You will see the doors are open
If you only dare to hope and you will find a way to fight
The fears that kept you down
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that’s not the way
The story has to end
Looking at your situation
There’s so much that you can do
Now’s the time to make your stand
This is just an observation
In the end it’s up to you
The future’s in your hands
~Learn to fly (A1)
Yinny was Joshing around @ 5:02 PM
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
ARGH!!!
WHY ARE THERE SUCH IRRITATING PEOPLE IN THE WORLD!!!!??? WHY DO I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING BY MYSELF!?!? WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE SO STUPID AND SO BLOODY THICK-SKINNED!!?!?!??! ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So sick and tired of this life. I don't want to worry abt my studies. I don't want to cook for myself. I don't want to wash my own clothes. I don't want to clean my own room. I don't want to pay my own bills. I don't want to have to think before I spend. I want to do what I want, when I want. I want to sleep all day. I don't want to be an adult. I want to be free. I don't know what I want anymore. As Amy would say, 'bloody walking contradiction'. Pooey.
One thing I'm sure of though: I want to marry Wang Li Hong!! LOL. Hilarious eh. Stupid paint. I have no idea how to cut the face circular. So now it looks weird. hmph.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 5:20 PM
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Monday, May 08, 2006
Random thoughts
I am starting to get the hang of Property Law. Its f*****g hard but I am trying. The worst thing about it is trying to understand what the hell the sentences mean in the first place. I mean, how are you going to understand the concept of it when the explanation doesn’t make sense in the first place? For example, I was stumped when I read this: “Problems arose with respect to the estate pur autre vie if the holder of the estate pre-deceased the cestui que vie.”* WTF??? I don’t speak Latin! Ended up having to check the dictionary numerous times since I have no idea what words like “estates”, “servient tenements”, “tenures”, "easements", “seisin”, “profits a prendre”, “restricted covenant” AND MANY, MANY MORE meant. *head spins around in circles* :S It’s all about theory and there’s no warmth in it at all. Hate dry subs like that. I need a good tutor.
Kenny Sia is so freaking funny I could read his blog all night. I wish I had that kind of humour and that flair for writing. It’s inborn, you can’t learn how to do it or fake it.
I recently realised that I have been able to come out of my shell a little and speak truthfully to my friends about some of the problems I have with them. I used to be so afraid that they would hate me that I would just talk to other friends about it instead of speaking directly to the person I had a problem with. Which of course, didn’t resolve anything and it was just a cover-up for a time bomb waiting to explode. I also realised that if I kept going to talk to other friends about it, it may come across as bitching/gossiping behind backs. I assure you that this is not so. Mainly because when I have a problem, I usually go to people for advice. And for them to be able to advise me, of course I would have to tell them my problem right? I’m not the sort of person who can bottle things up (because I will go crazy) so I need people to talk to.
I understand that no one is perfect and that if I make a mistake or become unbearable, I also want to be told so that I can correct it. I greatly appreciate the fact that we are all friends and can speak openly about things with each other. It shows that our relationship has reached a level where everyone can be (brutally *lol*) honest with each other. So, to *blah*: Thanks for understanding. Thanks for graciously accepting what I was trying to say, even though you may not have understood it. Thanks for apologizing cuz it meant a lot. And thanks for always being available for a serious and honest chat when I needed one, despite how busy you are. I’m trying to be a better person. Cheers to our fearsome foursome.
I had this dream which left me in tears a couple of days ago. I dreamt that Yuanny was at the airport leaving for the U.S. (which she already is in) and I was sending her off. All I remember is giving her a hug and telling her something like, I’m sorry that we haven’t caught up much and that we’ve missed out on so much of each others’ lives. And that I will miss her very much since we’re not going to be able to see each other in a long time. And I started to cry in my dream, and when I woke up, my face was covered in tears. It made me realise how much I miss her and the good ‘ol primary and secondary school days when we used to write letters to each other and talk on the phone for hours on end about everything. It’s been 10 years. We’ve both grown, taken different paths in life and had our own share of happiness and sorrow. And even though we’ve not been communicating as much as I’d like (partly my fault), she’ll always be special to me.
Good luck for your test Mich!! After that you can treat yourself (and us) to apple pie!! :)
*A, Bradbook, et.al., Australian Real Property Law, 3rd ed, Ligare Pyt Ltd, RIverwood NSW, 2002, p.47
Yinny was Joshing around @ 12:40 AM
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
HURHUR
Michelle convinced me to try the Ford focus website that Kenny Sia posted up on his website (that fella is hilarious) so I did. It's really quite ingenious. Check it out yourself: http://www.ford.com.my/allnewfocus/index.shtml
I was having fun typing in words like "fart", "kiss", "fly" etc. Then I remembered: I gave up karaoke-ing to study. I need to go. ARGH!!!
Yinny was Joshing around @ 12:49 PM
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they drug on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
Baby don't forget
Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a bible
If you ever lose your way
Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me
This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Keep telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said, "Hey momma, don't forget to tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fall
And tell mee-mal that I miss her Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me"
Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
Yea I know there's more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me
Don't forget to remember me
~Don't forget to remember me (Carrie Underwood)
Yinny was Joshing around @ 10:28 PM
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Why u so LIKE THAT?!?!
This is what Sylvia and Michelle did the whole time they were in my room an hr ago. Searching for the lyrics to this weird Singaporean song. Which I heard a loooonnnggg time ago. Which is quite hilarious too I might add.
I give you all my chocolate, I give you my tic tac,
But when I wan a kit kat, You never gimme back!
Oui, why u so like dat ah?
Hey why u so like dat?
Why u so like dat ah?
Hey why u so like dat?
I let you kopy all my sum, Because you always blur,
But when I try to kopy back,You always call the Sir!
Oui, why u so like dat ah?
Hey why u so like dat?
Why u so like dat ah?
Hey why u so like dat?
You tell me dat you don't like girl, I also donno why,
But when you see a pretty girl, Your voice go up damn high!
Oui, why u so like dat ah?
Hey why u so like dat?
Why u so like dat ah?
Hey why u so like dat!
~Kopi Kat Klan/Siva Choy song "Why U So Like Dat?"
And in the process of looking, they found this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_fI0nTlexk&feature=Favorites&page=2&t=t&f=b
Be patient and wait for the video to load. It's really hilarious. This is a preview of it:
Ahhh the wonders of the internet. Cheers.
Yinny was Joshing around @ 7:45 PM
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Monday, May 01, 2006
Updates
Sorry people for not updating...Have been pretty busy lately because of my darn medical essay that I had to finish. Now it's all done and gone I feel a sense of relief but not for long (did that just rhyme?! Damn I'm a natural). Evidence case study coming to haunt me soon and then 2 tests coming up then exams. Damnit. When does it ever end?
Been very tired lately. Got so many things to do and no friggin time.
On the other hand, I've been having a great time. Went shopping last week for a full day with the girls. Didn't buy much but Michy probably spent enough for the other 3 of us! *lolz* Played baddy with them for 2.5 hrs. Very good game. Felt like I could go on forever. But then I'd probably be aching like them if I really did. Went 2 see Stephen K Amos (some comedian) in the city late at night the other day and decided that Russell Peters is the funniest comedian ever. Cuddn't really understand Stephen's accent and some of his jokes. (HOHO So THAT'S where my time went)
Big brother (a reality series) is here! Whooohoo!!! Damn scandalous reality show sia. I love it. It keeps me entertained all thru the nite everyday. When you see those people, you wonder if you could live in the same house with 14 other strangers and try and bond with them so as to be the last one evicted and win the million dollars (or whatever is left of it at least). There's so much bitching and backstabbing going on which reflects what goes on in the real world. That's what's so real about it. Must be damn stressful to be watched by the public 24/7 though. And how HOT is Jamie?? Seriously!! He is sOoo damn cute. And nice too. *goofy grin* :P
Juice just told me just now that the 2nd coming is coming. As in, the Pastor in her church told them that yea, basically the world is coming to an end. And...most likely it's going to be in our generation. It's freaking scary if you think about it...yet I wonder how it's going to be like. There's going to be a huge nuclear world war 3 and all...wow..that's just freaking scary. Goodness knows how long it will take though. It's just amazing.
Another week, another Tuesday. Can't wait for Thursday to come. Hope everyone's been coping fine. Till next time!! Take care!!
Yinny was Joshing around @ 11:24 PM
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